A day full of unusual mood swings...distractions from work... emotional upheavals ...hard talk... relief... last hour slog to finish pending things ...and finally a dinner with a joyful couple...
Just like a masala movie... had everything...emotions, drama, a fight sequence (almost) and a happy ending!
The word 'No', never seemed more important. Anxiously waiting for the answer- hoping it wouldn't be Yes. Alas, it was a 'yes' :(
Still I don't give up ...discussions, negotiations, plain talk, hard talk, clarifications, elaborations ... and then finally it came. "No, ....."
2. "Focus Tanmoy Focus"
It struck me at 4 pm, that I haven't done enough for the past few days. No one is complaining, but I feel terrible inside.
'One of these days, I will have to sit late and finish it. Only if I had the will to swim against the waves'
I start to swim, but the water is cold. I am not motivated enough to work. So, I go down for a smoke and watch people leave. All are happy to go home, smiling and satisfied.
I say ..."Why the Hell not me?!"
I go back inside and start working. Get a call from a dear friend. I had not met her for a long time. The couple says, they will wait for me and then leave for dinner and that excuses won't work. I get 1 hour to finish as much as I can. The target does wonders and I end up surprising myself. Demons that I had postponed for days, crumble and vanish easily!
Maybe, I did have a faint smile, as I left the office but, the best part there was - there was absolutely nobody to notice it!
3. 'Nostalgic movie masala ladies fingers'
Curiosity over how bad could have been Sawariya?, discussion over why they had to show nudity in Beowulf ?, old college talk, good movie websites, and rubbish humor in a movie called 'Angrez'...that I am told ..."you HAVE to watch!"...amidst well cooked ladies fingers...
The best part is the reason why we ordered 'ladies fingers'... tomorrow it shall be a test for me and my roomie... 'let's see if can generate a better taste!'
I am confident... from the recent success with my new mastery ---The Cauliflower diaries...
This song is by an English band called 'Uriah Heep', formed in December 1969. They are sometimes jokingly referred to as the 'Beach Boys' of heavy metal. They are pretty much melodic behind their heavy sound.
I think early last year, for a long time I had nothing much to do. Whenever I was in my senses, I used spend time looking for good music. That's when I discovered the powerful lyrics, loads of creativity blended in melody, soulful vocals and range of influences... I concluded they were somewhat Deep Purple...somewhat Led Zepp...and somewhat Extreme.
This song really defines how I felt, sometimes when I used to sit up on the bed near the window. Rains in Pune can be a mess, but this song gave it a different look. Again as always - this song is not one of their most popular ones ... but to me one of the deepest. I also like 'What should be done', 'Sweet Loraine', 'Why', 'Easy Leaving' (that's the popular one), 'What's within my heart'...
I love the simplicity in the music and the profound emotions in the lyrics... 'raining inside'... hats off!!
This is the Video and the album cover - 'The Magician's Birthday'. There are better versions of the song - but this is the best available on the internet currently.
It's raining outside
But that's not unusual
But the way that I'm feeling
is becoming usual
I guess you could say
The clouds are
away from your days
and into mine
Now it's raining inside
And that's kind of a shame
And it's getting to me,
a happy man
Why should you want to
waste all my time
The world is yours
but I'm mine
Rain rain rain in my tears
Measuring carefully my years
Shame shame shame in my mind
See what you've done to my life
3 years ago